My Life As Of Late

I had a good massage call last night with a great client, but unfortunately, I started feeling nauseous towards the end. I think sometimes the stress that another person has and the mental bullshit that is going on in their life can be transferred to you. Their negative energy can infect you and cause physical symptoms. We studied about this in massage classes. I was nauseous from 7 pm that day until well into the night around 3 am. I just hope it was just negative energy from that man and not that I could be pregnant. I don't see how I could possibly be pregnant considering that everytime I have sex, I use a condom, but of course, I know that they aren't fool proof. I just hope to God that I'm not pregnant.

It's been kind of slow lately. Yesterday was a bit of a disappointment. I had one call and thought that I had another appointment, but it fell through. I spend a lot of money on Christmas presents, and I really need to make all that money back plus some for savings. I put some ads up on a site I'll call hx, but as usual I had no luck. I just got the typical bargain hunters and the asshole bottom feeders asking me 50 questions and then not scheduling anything. That site is so useless. I use it to chat on, because you can learn a lot from what the other ladies are doing. It's nice to be able to chat back and forth with other people in the same business. There is a certain camaraderie that gets formed.

I can't seem to motivate myself to study this Spanish that I paid all this money for. I'm thinking of just taking a class at the local college this January. But, I don't know if it will be enough to motivate me. I think part of the problem is that I'm not on a full dose of this medication yet. I need to get up to at least 100 mg, and I'm only at 25mg. It's part of the process of taking this particular drug. You need to be weaned on to it. On top of that, if I miss three days of taking this medication, I have to start all over again. So, I'll be sure to take it every day. I'm taking a cocktail of 4 pills every night. But, I really can't complain if it works. We are going for stability. I would really like to have a steady sleep schedule. That is my dream. Awake at 7 or 8 and to bed at 11 or 12. Then, I will know that my meds are finally working.